Masa telah sampai~~

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Masa itu telah tiba...

Datang ia tanpa diduga...

Telah cube tok besedia...

Tapi masih...

Ia menjadi yang sebaliknya...

Telah dirancang...

Tapi takdir tuhan lg bekuasa...

Segalanya telah ditetapkn...

Maka...

Inilah masanya...

Tok segalanya...

Tapi adakh hati ini akn besedia...

Adakh akn redha hati ini...

Ateh ape yg belaku...

Ataw menerime sajela...

Kerna ini pun...

Hasil dr dosa2 mse lalu...

Mane satu yg akn dilakukan...

Entahla...

Mungkin itu...

Dan mungkin ini...

Dan mungkin... hanya mungkin...

Meninggalkn sgalanya...

Adalh yg tebaik...

Masa itu telah tiba...

Takdir diri telah sampe...

Setelh mnduga sekian lame...

Mungkin 'ini' la yg tebaik...

Mungkin.....

Dan hanya mungkin.......................

Insan yang menyesal,

Benji1629

Bile...

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Lame tak update...

Dirini busy dgn due keidupan...

Yang dilalui...

Dengah tabah dan redha...

Tidak dirini ketahui...

Bile...

Kite mule bertanya sesuatu...

Dapatkh kite jawapan dengan cepat...

Dapatkh ia menjawab soalan kite...

Adakah itu jawapan yang kite mahu...

Adakah tejawab pesoalan kite...

Bile...

Kite bertanya tentang takdir tuhan...

Kite lebih menyalahkan...

Bukan tuk memahami...

Bukan tuk menghargai...

Bahwa tuhan sedang bebicara...

Bahwa Dia lebih mengertahui...

Dia yang Maha Mengetahui...

Selama ini...

Kite kata kite beriman kepda tuhan...

Tapi nape kite menyalahkn pula...

Bile...

Kite sedang meminta sesuatu...

Kite harap tecapai hajat itu..

Minta dpat ape yg kite mnta...

Tapi ape ptut kite buat...

Bile tuhan memberi...

Dengan cara yg lain...

Tuhan masih memberi...

Ape yg kite minta setiap ari...

Tapi dengan cara yg lain...

Boleh ke kite terime...

Ape yg Tuhan beri itu...

Boleh ke kite terime dgn hati yg tebuka...

Bile...

Kite dapat ape yg kite nk...

Tapi dengan cara yg lain...

Tapi kite tak mau terime...

Kite salahkn tuhan...

Tidak mau besyukur...

Camne ni aiyo...

Dah dapat dh...

Nape tak mau besyukur...

Nape tak mau sujud sejenak pd Yang Maha Esa...

Besyukur dan bepikir sejenak...

Krn ape yg telah Tuhan beri...

Itula yg tebaik pd kite...

Die yg lebih mengetaui...

Nape ati tu keras sgat ni...

Terimala...

Dugaan itu nikmat paling besa...

Nikmat itu jga dugaan paling besar...

Igatla pesanan ini...

Wahai ati sanubari...

Bukala atimu itu...

Terimala cahaya hidayahNya...

Redha dan tabahla...

Bile Tuhan berbicara dengan hambanya...

Tadahkn tangan dan doa...

Moga nikmat itu kekal selamanya...

Moga diberi nikmat paling besar dlm idup ini...

Iaitu nikmat hidayahNya...

Jadi.. Bile......

Tuhan menguji... memberi nikmat...

Behenti sejenak...

Dan bicarala denganNya...

Sekian...

Dari insan yang cuba memahami...

Setiap nikmat dan dugaan Allah Yang Maha Esa...

Benji1629.

Dh sampe seru hoho!!

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Em lame dh tak buka blog acik ko ni...

Ptut dh tutup jelh klu buka sbulan sekali...

Tapi takpe...

Hayat die masih panjang lagi kut...

Em nk mncurah skit la dimalam harini...

Dikala malam sedang sunyi...

Tika cik adik kesayangan dh tido...

Pe lagi, moh le kite update weh blog ni...

Takde ape nk cite pun..

Nak bgtaw je yg dirini dh sampe seru...

Tak larat nk tahan dh...

Pusing kiri, tgk bnda alah tu...

Pusing kanan, tgk bnda alah tu gak...

So ape lg...

Jgn tggu pe2 lg marila kite wat pe yg ptut...

Nak taw pe yg nk dibuat yek..

Toksahla taw, akan tiba mase tuk sume owg...

Klu dh sampe seru die ok...

Lgpun, tak sampe seru pn...

Dh rame yg 'menyerukn' diri msing2 pn haha...

Okla, toksah ckp byk...

Cukup sampe sini...

Harap maafla yek...

Drini cite kiasan saje, nk taw pe die...

G kursus kawen dulu ye...

Bru tanya dirini hahah...

Ok chow, camat mlm sume!!!

Insan sampe seru dh pun!!!

Benji1629.

Minggu huru-hara!!

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Em, arini dah masuk isnin, iaitu 22hb...

Bermula minggu baru, dan bermula tugas baru...

Minggu ini minggu 'berperang'...

Perang dengan test dan presentation...

Tak terdaya...

Umpama diserang dari depan dan belakang hehe...

Tapi akan diri ini berusaha...

Menghadapi dengan muka yang toya hahaha!!!

Serius cakap...

Badanku disini, otakku di Cheras sane...

Otakku disini, fikiranku di Cheras sane...

Waduh2, nape jadi begini dong...

Enggak leh fokus ni hehe..

Tak sabar sudah dirini nak pulang...

Pulang tok melihat pengantin baru...

Jejejeng, sapekah yang bakal berkahwin itu ya???

Nantikan update minggu hadapan ok hehe..

Suka dan duka silih berganti...

Kerana kau tidak lagi sperti dulu...

Walau apepun, kudoa dirimu sentiasa bahagia...

Huhu...

Okla, mahu sambung wat keja ni,

Chow dulu ya...

Insan Tekejor-kejor,

Benji1629.

Demam melanda..

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Em arini aku demam.. demam melanda kembali...

Ketika bnyak persiapan harus dibuat..

Diriku tumbang kerana demam..

Apela nasib diri...

Anyway, doakanla aku smbuh cepat yek..

2 presentation dan 3 test menanti...

Siap sedia mem'belasah' aku puas2 mggu depan...

Doakanla yek..

Ujian tuhan tu..

Sangat berat...

Diberi mate timbil, hidung behingus dan telinga tak donga...

Amik ko, dugaan kecil, efek besa...

Bukan tak sanggup...

Cume tak daya dah je..

Doakan aku...

Agar peperangan mggu dpan...

Bejaya aku harungi ok..

Huhu pale dh penin sangat dah ni...

Ok chow dulu bebeh!!!

Insan Kepeningan,

Benji1629

Ape nk dibuat yek??

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Em arini dah balik ke tmpat asal..

sunyi sepi sngguh tmpat ni...

Napekh...

OO sume balik jumpe kluaga rOpanya hehe...

Ni dah balik umah dh...

Skrg ni, kt tmpat ni la...

Tmpat mane, xyah ckp haha..

Serius...

Tmpat ni bosan, xyah taw pn xpe huhu...

Okla, dh sampe sini...

So nk watpe ni...

Update blog yg lame x jenguk...

sdang update...

Ape nk wat lg ni hehe..

Tgk rumet, em dota jelh..

Tgk depan, nmpak gambo kurus..

So xtaw nk watpe ni hehe..

So, kne mkn ke ni..

Tp niat nk kurus haha..

So ape lg weh..

Marila kite tido...

letih gile babat nek ketapi jauh2 tp beh la nek ketapi hehe ;P

Jum2 tido jum hehe ;P

Insan Ngantuk,

Benji1629

What shoudl I say now...

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Em... how to begin with...

My blog... this blog...

Full with sorrow...

But what can I do about it...

This is my blog..

Place where I express all my feelings..

It represent my heart...

That full with sorrow...

I want to story something that very funny...

Make people laugh...

When read...

but...

There is nothing I can do...

As long this heart full with sorrow...

This blog will always be like this...

I hope today...

Will create new happiness to me...

Sadly, only sad and sorrow that it make...

I'm not saying that god is unfair...

Actually...

This is all my mistake and sin...

Time to pay everything...

Nothing more to say...

Just silent will be mine...

Thank you,

Benji1629.

Takdir Ilahi

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Takdir Ilahi...
Sangat besar makna itu...
Tak dapat disangkal...
Tak dapat diubah...
Tak dapat dipinda...
Hanya boleh menerima...
Dengan hati yang tabah...
Dengan redha dihati...
Kerana semua itu telah tertulis...
Di awal asal kejadian...
Sebagai hamba yang mengenali...
Redha menjadi teman sejati....

Bukan tok mengingkari...
Bukan tok melupakan janji....
Bukan tok menipu diri...
Tapi takdir Ilahi itu...
Kita sendiri yang terima...
Tok terima segala...
Bek jodoh pertemuan...
Rezeki hidup...
Ajal dan maut...
Semua itu kita yang terima...
Mengapa hendak mengungkit lagi...
Mengapa mengeluh lagi...
Mungkin terasa berat tok memikul...
Tapi percaya...
Yang Esa takkan menguji hambaNYA...
Andai hamba itu tidak mampu menerima...
Kerana itu...
Dia lah Tuhan Yang Maha Penyayang kepada hambaNYA...

Tapi...
Manusia itu memang tamak...
Tak cukup dengan satu...
Mesti ada yang kedua...
Begitu juga denganku....
Kuingin pinta sesuatu...
Sekali lagi meminta...
Kerana kuhanya hamba yang lemah...
Serba serbi lemah...
Kutidak tahu apa harus kulakukan...
Kutidak nampak jalan penyelesaian...
Ya ALLAH ya Tuhanku...
Dengan rahmat dan petunjukMU...
Berilah jawapan pada persoalan diriku...
Andai masih ada pilihan untuk diriku...
Kuingin memilih sekali lagi...
Kutamak dengan pemberianMU...
tapi diriku hanya insan biasa...
Tuhanku...
KepadaMU aku kembali...
Berilah petunjukMu kepadaku...
Sesungguhnya...
Kukehilangan arah tuju tika ini......

Insan Kesesatan,
Benji1629.

How to correct it back...

Asalamualaikum wbt.

How to begin....
It is the same story again...
The same feeling that I feel...
The same thing I want to say...
I don't know how to say it but...
I'm tired with all of this...
I want to stop it...
But I don't know how to stop it...

As usual...
It was a mistake that I made...
The thing that I shouldn't make..
But...
As a human being...
I cannot change the fact...
I, a human that will always make mistake...
But...
How to correct it back...
How to change the fact...
That I have made a mistake...
How to correct it back...
Anyone...
Can anyone...
Help me with this thing...
I don't know what to do...

Because of my mistake...
I hurt you...
I didn't mean to hurt you...
But...
It is my destiny...
It is my way of life...
That will keep hurting you...
Hope there is a way...
To stop all of this...
It hurt me as well...
When see your heart hurt...
By my mistake...
Wish I can correct back all my mistake...
Em...
I will give everything that belong to me...
As long as you will happy...
I don't want to hurt you...
Please...
I hope that I can stop all of this...
And correct back my mistake...
Correct back for what I have done...
I'm sorry...
Really sorry...
To include you...
In this pity life of me...
I'm sorry...
Wish that...
I can correct back all my mistake to you...

This heart feel hurt,
Benji1629.

Now, where am I??

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Em... where am I now??
I don't know..
Do u know where am I??
Can u tell me...
I don't know la...
Where am I...
Am I at the house...
or at the campus??
Which one is it??
Can anyone tell me...
Whoever can tell me...
A kiss as a present...
Anyone interested...
Please answer my question first ok...
I do not know where am I...
So please help me ok...
Tell me...
Answer my question...
Where am I now??????

Loss Person,
Benji1629

Should I go or...

Asalamualaikum wbt.

What should I do...
Should I stay...
Or Should I leave...
I hate to think about this...
It make my head cramp...
Hate to think a lot...
Like old peoples...
But what can I do about it...
Or...
What should I do about it...

Damm...
I hate this world...
But...
Even I want to leave this world...
It still the same question...
Should I do it...
Or not..
Damm...
Very difficult la idup ni...
HUuhuhu...

Hate tho think,
Benji1629

Don't know what to feel...

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Em I don't know what to feel...
It is hurt...
In this little heart...
Don't want it to be like that...
Seriously...
I don't want it to like that...
I hate it...
When it happens like that...
So...
Should I leave this world...
Or what...
I don't know what to feel...
I don't know what to say...
It hurt me...
It hurt this heart...
Can you live with me like this...
Can you live this kind of life...
Can you...
I need an answer...
Because my heart is hurt...
Very hurt....
I'm sorry...
For what I have did....
Don't mean it to be like this...
I'm sorry...
Forgive me for what has happens...
Forgive me...
Hope we will meet again next time...
If there is next time.....

It hurt me a lot,
Benji1629.

Another Year to go thorugh.... sigh...

Asalamualaikum wbt.

Em... new year come again...
And for this year...
My age will be 22...
So long I have live in this world...
Em...
People... when new year come...
They always make a pact...
Why they do it...
What is so important about...
Talking about people...
Same goes to me...
I also made a pact to myself...
A pact...
Which actually very hard to do it....
Why should I made that pact...
It will be easier for me if there are no pact in my life...
But...
Since there was a mistake I made...
Big mistake that I should not done...
So...
By this pact...
I hope... and believe...
This new year will give me strength to keep my pact...
I hope so...

And goes same to blog...
Bla bla bla n bla...
So many things I want to talk...
Never want to shut up this big mouth...
Always want to tell a story...
Always want to say it here...
Why don't u say it directly to the person u want to talk with...
Why this blog be the place I want to tell everything...
Sigh....

So....
U already made a pact...
I will not tell the pact...
I will keep it in my heart...
That is all what I should do...
Do what u already promised...
Do whatever u want to do this year...
Do more and say less....
Enough is enough...
New year 2010...
I come and I hope this year will give good hope to me...
InsyaALLAH....

Person that want to believe,
Benji1629.